My heart is deceitful, it’s really true. I guess these months i have been having like some brain problem and stuff. I go to church like they owe me something, like a consumer, demanding for something. Maybe that’s why i keep chaobin-ing this whole year. like everyone ought to be happy and humourous around me, whether is it in school, in church, at home and blah.
If i do things out of love, not for love, i will be happier this year. Less chao bin, since i chao bin almost everyday. I chao bin two days ago because the people in front of me walk super slowly in bugis.
sigh, i gotta change before that gets worse.
And that it wouldn’t stay in my mind that im doing something FOR church, or church doing something FOR me. So how should i be thinking?
actually im not sure. HAHA. But thank God for the realisation:] better late than never

christmas is coming:D im uber excited:D cant wait cant wait<3

I haven’t blog for so long that i forgot where’s the button to type a new blogpost. HAHA.
Christmas is coming, means that i need to get a pressie for mummy and x’mas cards. Went to made with love and accidently swing to hard that i broke the cap of a colorwash. goodness gracious. colorwash eh. Sian. got to buy it of course, wanted to just ignore it because there are other bottles that don’t have a cap too (i assume other people broke it accidently as well. HAHA), but i feel really bad. So yup, bought it.
It’s lettuce in colour. omg. HAHA. hope it comes in handy for christmas, cost around 12bucks. I don’t know why is it that costly, but i presume it’s acidfree that’s why. HAHA. I tried spraying it on paper, but im not good in handling spraypaint dyes. oh, someone please help me! haha.

Don’t really like working. Mummy thought i am over-reacting and should just chillax. So she got me macdonald’s breakfast almost everyday:3 so sweet. Just for three days, i can memorise that freaking long survey in my head and give the standard answers for it. the survey is uber long and i’m uber sick of it. it’s like cheap labour, i feel cheated:( oh whatever. come on, pass me the bucks soon and i will fly to HK and buy those Tshirts that i always wanted to wear in my life, and pass some bucks to my mummy so we won’t be that tight in finance.

Just yesterday,she passed me 20 bucks and i feel really sad:/ I feel like a leech at home.

Watching three rivers and true blood on youtube. OMG, so nice. kate moennig is the main reason to watch three rivers. she’s reaching 30, but she’s still so hot. She still have the andro look. HAHA. As for true blood, what other reasons can there be to watch this besides for anna paquin?:3 but she’s engaged to that 40 yearold guy, omg. HAHA.

TML is CAMP:3 excited excited! one of the precamp preparation is not to feel to lao jiao about it. the syndrome comes frequently. which is BAD! yups. we are sleeping in classroom, loves it, easier to htht. HAHAHA.

and TML, you guys who’s sleeping in the same class room as me will have the privilege to hear me singing breakout and tic toc! haha breakout for night and tic toc to get high. AINT THAT GREAT?

packed my room yesterday before went out for movie. Took me quite some time to pack. i wanted to throw away all the math and econs papers because its rather useless, i doubt i will look at it anyway. espacially econs test and exams paper, it’s like just there collecting dust. I guess if Im an art student, i will be throwin all my tutorials every term because its useless. i study answers, not my tutorials. HAHAHA. then math was crazy a lot of my writing with no answers, all those revision papers and tutorials unmarked. throw away. then pack stuff needs loads of files, crazyyy, the bio was so messed up that i didnt bother to pack it anymore. HAHA

just to think that theres like near one month holiday before As come kinda sucks. too long a holiday i will lose my focus and play. to think that there’s GP As to do is doubly sucky, or maybe very sucky. Why do we have to be tested in english?

I couldn’t even take this prelims. because exams are rather spreaded out as compared to last time, where exams will end within three days. I just lose it after monday. keep using the comp,listening to indie, roam around the house, sleep,sleep,sleep, stone, sleep sleep sleep, watch mcdull, listen to indie again, daze, and stare at the books.
Im really amazed with people that can study for long hours, or stay in the room for very long to study. i can’t. my real attention span is only two hours, after that, my attention diffuses very quickly. hurhur. Thank God for prelim papers, I will puke if i have to read all those notes again. read until it turns yellow already still must read it.
But by God’s grace i actually survive prelims. i told God i cannot take it already, very sian. normally i waste the whole night, sleep early, then wake up early to study. and I could do that this week. it’s a feat. by God’s strength for sure:] thank you:3

i think after As, i will be more stupid than before. since i spend one month only learning how to stuff information in my brain. aiyoaiyo.

hahahaahahahahahaha. aiyar,9.30am already. i missed doraemon on tv:/

MSN is daaa best!!! seriously~~~
After a thousand and one months, im finally talking to marie again! feel so nice-y. like lao peng you chatting again~ so awesome.

ytdy is really shui, i was just rubbing my paper, then the table drop. SIAN. but i always rub leh, but the table never drop before. AND now then drop, during econs STAR in LT1 somemore, a million people are inside eh! EERRRYYEEEERRRRRRRR
wanted to do some work ytdy, but went to sleep in the end. today is someone’s big day, time to finish the card!! haha

i have a feeling i wont laugh out loud watching xi la ma ya xing myself.. ermmm. hahaha. watch together lah. then after watch the ekin cheng movie. hahahaha

OMG my father is coming for parents teacher meet?!?!!!!!!! zhao lai bu lai xian zai cai lai.

come on lah. lai for what? not as if she got much to say. IF she got much to say, not as if what she say will be some magic potion that makes me clever. it’s like wasting time please. lets just all go home and watch the food show.

today i have delicious food. sushi, vegeterian food without vegeterian meat, and home cooked soup that has salmon vege and pork. woah.
but yesterday was better.
century egg minced pork porridge. woohoooooo

i wanted to watch the fat girl and friends show, but my mum went into my room and started sewing, then nobody watch with me. so sian please. but the fat girl and friends show feels so draggggyyyyy.

i always thought chemistry mcqs are very sly and jian. that’s what i learn in sec sch. they give the wat-majority-will-take type of answer but actually the ans is smth else.
So i chose B in one of the qn, bcoz i thought it was a trick qn.
-.-
and it turned out to be a normal easy qn, with normal calculation, no extra thinking required. just punch the numbers, press enter, and shade C.
-.- man, how could these be. the days of tricky qns are gone, when i get tricked but tricky qns.
Now, im tricked by non tricky qns. oxymoron or what?

this week was totally sleeping week for me.
wed after transformers, went home and sleep
thurs omg what did i do? but i know i slept at 9smth at night
friday left half way during coporate prayer meet. reach home at 9smth, slept at 10. zzz
sat write cards, then go for service. left town to eat w parents. they ate Vegetarian stuff, i ate chicken wing (YES!), went home at 9smth ate kindlejoy, wrote bday card slept at 11pm
sunday continue writing and sewing the card, reach bouna at 9.30am, celebrate jo’s bday, went home ate maggie mee, sleep, woke up eat steamboat, watch tomcruise, sleep at 10pm.
monday TODAY.

i sleep and eat like a pig. as the tummy increases its size, the chances of getting married is less:/ man. that’s a pretty sad truth.
and because i sleep a lot, i got very short attention span. i guess there’s a relation. i missed watching absolute on fri night, wo chai on sat-.- before i slept at sunday, mummy said that there’s stephan fung on tv nxt sat at 10.30pm. omg that’s late, i think i’ll zzz even before i could watch it. but hey, she still rmb i like stephan fung. that’s good. i thought she’s getting dementia, bcoz she kept forgetting things very easily, and im very very scarced she will get it:( dementia is the one that you forget things right? or is that parkinson’s disease. omg, whats parkinson’s disease anyway? i only know whats stroke, diabetes and high blood pressure.

saturday went to eat with parents, so didnt go minds cafe with the rest. daddy told me to buy lamp chop. i told him i dont like lamb chop
translated..
me: i dont eat lamb chop. what are you eating?
daddy: SOUUUUUUUUUUUU.
omg, i can’t believe he did that. he just give me the i-know-u-dont-eat-vegetarian-food-here-so-u-just-buy-lampchop face. and he close his eyes, suck in the air, that let it out and pulled the word at the same time, SOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
erm. okay. hahahahha.
i think because i slept alot these days, so i have the ability to talk non stop once i open my mouth. so he got irritated during the dinner. man, he also talk a lot when i ask him qn what. I asked him what is the tiananmen sq about and he talked for near 45minutes.i was expecting a clear cut one sentence answer okay.

went to mykii for jo’s bday. She’s twenty this year. woah, old. hahaha. nicole is nineteen this year. woah, old. im only seventeen,hahahaha.

exams are over by wednesday. man, went out of the hall feeling so exhausted. and seriously didnt like ytdy, bcoz it was really bad. But i went out with chris right after chem paper, so i didnt think that much, yea, seriously thank God.
Went to watch transformers, zzzz. Fox is hot, love the songs new divide and never say never. Sound effects arent that awesome, screen small, dont like that green day song (is it called 21guns? ermmm), movie overly long, i get so distracted so easily. i bet chris wanted to kill me bcoz i kept making comments, man, this kinda movie that dont get me to the edge of my seat, i just gotta talk to make me stay alive and hyped up to watch movie.
daddy is right, some people these days, arent for the movie theatre any more. I so gotta agree.

Wanted to get a nap, but i couldn’t sleep. ohwell, went to watch Anna SUI, Dominique Sirop and Shanghai Tang fashion shows. Man, i totally love the pure asian models. they are just simply beautiful. Don’t know what makes them attractive, but they are just attractive. i’m not attractive. whoo….

heard that monday is youth day. does that mean holiday? hurhurhurhur

akira say that her exams end next thurs-.- man, mine ended today. I wanted to eat popeye together, or maybe just sit at some cafe and stone together. ohwell, next thurs, school would have return to the normal schedule for me already-.-

Met T today at bugis Mos and the feeling was great.
Didnt do much, didnt want to do or say much either.
I just loved her presence around and didn’t wanna spoil it with all the talking, the ranting, or nostalgic htht. 
that’s all.
It just totally brighten up the whole of the week, or actually, the hols.