Sophron


January 27, 2009, 8:35 pm
Filed under: sophron

Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked.
-Psalm 84:10

these weeks it’s like an emotionless time with God. It’s really emotionless. I don’t know why and how that happened, and in the end, i get very jittery everyday in school.
I dont know why and how that happened. but I know how it continued…

Doing quiet time now is like studying to me. like pure studying. read, think, remember, understand and one short meaningless prayer and off i go.
really off i go.  
it’s so meaningless that for the past weeks, all my quiet times is as good as nothing. as good as wasting my time and flip the bible and try to act holy. That’s really bad. yupp, it’s really bad. okayy, maybe not the act holy part, more like i act holy in front of God.
wasted efforts.

Like David and Solomon. Solomon looks like he has some good life, while David, quite bad i must sad esp at the end i read until i cannot take it.. But David was a guy with chase after God’s heart, and Solomon chase after self improvement.
Emotionless me has been chasing for ‘self improvement’ for no reasons. Chasing to get a certificate? chasing to have good EQ, chasing to understand ppl, chasing to be good in front of everyone, to be everyone’s nice friend, or not that nice friend and all the blah blah blah.  

“And i saw that all labor and all achievemnts spring from man’s envy of his neighbor. This too is meaningless, a chasing after wind.” -Ecc 4:4
yarr, i really envy.
“A man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. This too, I see, is from the hand of God.” -Ecc2:24
yupp, that means i wasted my time envying knowingly and UNknowingly. 

 You, continue chasing, and you will regret it when the time comes when you get it. It’s like sauce, you drink it, it’s tasty, but you will never satisfy. 
Start knowing who gives the living water. It’s taste like pure sweet lemonade:]

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January 26, 2009, 5:03 pm
Filed under: random

to_tell_the_truth

Actually it’s not that good if you have no where to bai nian. bcoz for the whole day, i sleep, my mum sleep my dad sleep. and we eat and sleep eat and sleep. that’s all we do.

zzz



tunnel – third day
January 24, 2009, 11:45 am
Filed under: whispered into your ear


If we can just get thru this one
January 24, 2009, 7:11 am
Filed under: my head will explode

There must be something wrong with me, as if im living in an anarchy lifestyle. 

 

Went to Muesum today, woohoo, total blast. LOVE it yo. I wanted to walk to the personal life of singapore history, BUT when i got in there’s some eerie sounds from the recorder. okayy, forget it, i just followed the crowd of ITE students to the general path. -.- So dark, i was so scarced okayy. 
Then went to the COME-IN exhibition. WOOHOO even nicer. Got me thinking:]
So yupp, the excursion should be longer, but i was very tired lethargic and distracted (actually that’s everyday) so went home. But i’m gonna go to SAM one of these weeks! yea\’o’/

School should be nice and fun. Although my woman’s trouble have yet to come, I act as if someone killed my parents. :/ Sorry guys, I act like a foreigner in a familiar environment. 

CNY is near, but i got nowhere to bai! haha.

AND plus my dad is so xi xin these days, so scary. HAHAHA. and sweet:] monday- cooked breakfast for me. tuesday wednesday – drive me to school. thurs – bought my fav bai ku tei stall’s bai ku tei for dinner. fri – i forgot, i was too pissed over nothing and i went to bed and sleep from late afternoon till the next day:/



January 20, 2009, 7:49 pm
Filed under: the calendar girl

awww thet:3 well

anyway, today was like some cool day for me. Went to far east with jozzie and sandu. Bought high heels and red belt. HAHA. yarr, i was like thinking should i wait for yen li’s belt, but it’s 5bucks, so just got it. HAHA Saw Grace, Farhana (woohoo, she still look as hot as ever) and well some SMSS juniors. What a day yo.

Went for OGL camp and it was fun:] aweeesome.. HAHA we look like some isolated family from all the others, i wonder whyy. HAHA. 

And i think i have a very serious problem with my tongue these days, what comes out from me is always wrong. Either sacrastic or insulting. To teachers or to friends and mummy daddy. I wonder why.. Gotta get it settle if not, i would be having a big unnecessary problem with people around me. 

i guess i wouldnt blog until i got the feeling to already. HAHA nowadays i have a stronger feeling to go to muesum or check out the art stuff:]



January 13, 2009, 7:07 pm
Filed under: the calendar girl

thank God for gin who found the solutions. Seriously, the whole of today afternoon while i was rollling on my bed, i was asking God and myself am i really going to go into the hall tml and sleep. Because i can’t do those three topics, plus i don’t have any tutors and what not for help. And sleeping in test is quite dreadful, today was dreadful enough (though i didnt sleep), HAHA, and if i sleep, i’ll get worse than what i got for that econs test i never intended to study. I got 30 for it that time>< WAHAHA.

WOOHOO God answer non spoken prayers, rather he answered my complaints >< by sending gin to tell me the solutions. 
Triple yay for that\’o’/ \’o’/ \’o’/ 

and this time round, i’m so not gonna watch youtube before the math test, bcoz everytime i did that, i got so distracted. LIKE TODAY, i was singing a lifetime and juicy by better than ezra in my head.-.- ANd i wanted to take the scissors to cut my hair off>< so i kept comtemplating how i should cut my hair or ask my mum to cut it or ask jozette to cut it, while doing the energetics. ohman, i really don’t know what to do with my hair T.T



January 11, 2009, 11:30 pm
Filed under: random

there is often barrenness in the life and ministry of the overly critical.